Things have started to pick up. It's not like full-time teaching and full-time grad school was crazy enough! This week has already been nuts and it's only Tuesday. We only get more nuts from here. (That's what she said!) I have a few constant thoughts in my head. First, the program I'm in is quite exquisite. I am learning an ENORMOUS amount of great info and I really can tell I am going to be a great teacher once I am out of this tunnel. (Tunnel could be replaced with several other analogies.) While that's great and wonderful, my second thought is that my life would be much less stressful if I were a singer or a wedding planner (my other two dream jobs). But then I remember that singers and wedding planners don't have quite the impact on the world that teachers do. Though they may make a person's day better, I am sort of in charge of lives.
Tonight in class one of my professors gave us this great little analogy about all the "balls" we are currently juggling. (My immature self of course chuckled under my breath.) But back to the point - we are juggling all of these rubber balls, and only one that is crystal. The rubber balls are things like the curriculum, my relationships with kids, my homework for grad classes, grading, waking up on time, being on my A-game, dealing with discipline, differentiating my lessons to meet the needs of all my kids, etc. etc. etc. All of those things are SUPER important, but if you drop one of them, they just bounce back. The crystal ball is the special one. The crystal ball CANNOT be dropped. The crystal ball is my family, my love. While I am a master juggler, this year especially, I cannot drop that crystal ball. If you drop THAT ball, it will shatter. Most times you can't fix a broken crystal ball...
I guess it just spoke to me because it is the thing I've been most worried about - not being the wife that I should, the listener I should, the best friend, the aunt, the daughter, etc. For those of you that are closest to my heart, please know that I love you more than the world. And while you might feel like you are unimportant to me, you really are the ones that keep me going. You have pushed me to this place. You have made it possible. You are my home, where my heart can rest. I truly appreciate you and I really hope I don't "drop the ball" with you this crazy year!
And now back to my research...
Lacy